Forever & ever

Heyloo world!

A bid thee greetings and well wishes. Take 'em or leave 'em I'm not really complaining.

I now sit here, on my bum, attempting in vain, to complete a mind-numbingly dull assignment that has and will not contribute to any part of my life except of course, the WASTING MY TIME part.

Feeling like this right now, but not much in a relaxing way. Maybe walking over a tight-rope..



The last two weeks of my holidays wasn't too bad. With it being every lazy persons dream, I just sat around, inhaling, and watched Friends reruns. Ah andd of course, how could I forget, my very disastrous trip to that little country below us which I shall write about in the near future and you can all feel sorry for me. Sitting in a car for 10 hours really isn't amusing. Went clubbing too, that was, well.. I couldn't feel my feet the whole day. Anyone else had a better holiday?

I DONT THINK SO!

Unless you went to Switzerland.. and France.. then, well, I'll just kill you when I see you :)

So so soooo, back to the gunk called school. To be honest, the last few days really weren't that much to shout about. Sure it was good seeing everyone again and having the impending doom of exams upon you, with constant reminders of it, robbing your peace of mind.

Oh joy!

Tuesday was a day of HELL for me. I actually intended to stick a large piece of paper on my back which bore the words
GRUMPY MODE: ON

Yes, it really was that bad. I wanted to die.. Actually I just wanted everyone dead. I know, doesn't sound very religious or angelic, but really, there's only too much optimism one can have.

And NOW, we have thankfully, made it to the end of the week! Alive!

With an abnormally large amount of work to complete, really doesn't give me anything to look forward to.. Guess the only plus point is that I won't have to stir myself out of a slumber at the ungodly hour of dawn.

I really haven't had much time to do any thinking either, all that life lessons and stuff... My brain has been set on 'work' mode, regretfully.

OH BUT, I do have a post coming up for one of those philosophical life topic thingys! It's actually quite depressing ahaha, I really do hate that you can't forget about people when you want to. :(

Next post will be long, I'll throw in some crap here and there, bit of drama, pinch of emotions, the usual stuff.. Hopefully my humour bone hasn't left me. HAHA GEDDIT GEDDIT, HUMUR BOONEEE! :D

Sorry, I'm not accustomed to working so hard.. Gets me a little.. weird. -er.

Ugh, life's too difficult. And painful. It needs a PAUSE button. Time's moving too fast and I'm not moving along with it. Nor am I moving on. It sucks. Its awful. It hurts. If you ever have a choice, to live in any form, pick a puppies life. Or a rock. Rocks sound cool. I'm gonna be a rock now, until I snap out of my stupor. :D

HAPPY THOUGHTS, HAPPY THOUGHTS!



DONT GIVE UP!

And stay awesome.

Till next time,

Man
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OH AND PS: IM MAKING A FEW CHANGES TO ZE BLOG TO MAKE IT LOOK LESS RETARDED! Bare with the retardation for a lil while, till I have a little more time to sort these things out. PEACE!

Misery

WILL UPDATE SOOOONNN!!! JUST UNTIL THE WORKLOAD LESSENS! TILL THEN, KEEP SMILING, AND STAY AWESOME!!!!

Keep yo' head on and brace yourself.. for another week of hell. We can sooo DO this!





Awesomeness,

Man
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Inoru

Tsunamis, Earthquakes, Fires...

It is most devastating to see, rubbles of debris lying strewn across the streets of Japan as BBC has reported. This afternoon, Japan was hit by a massive earthquake at a scale of 8.9 followed by a 33 foot wall of water, known to many as a tsunami. As one of Japan's biggest earthquakes in recorded history, it has destroyed and swept away much of the architecture and land. Fire's have broken out, from the nuclear plants and body counts continue to rise, as also, a very large number of people have gone missing. God alone knows how many ships/cruises/boats are now being digested in the pit of the pacific ocean, along with the hundreds on board.

Wow.. Insane isn't it?! Makes us all question that Mayan legend of "the world is ending in 2012" that many of us have either scoffed at, or hoped to God it wouldn't occur. Prickles of fear and anxiety have started to creep into our hearts wondering what the faack is going on with the world today. With the last major earthquake, only a month before, and issued warnings that have gone out today, kind of leaves you feeling weird. What's going to happen next? Where will it occur? Can the world take, yet more, than it already has?

Mother Nature's a bloody murderer isn't she?!

WTF IS GOING ON?!

Thats the one thought that's running through everyones minds right now. First few waves of 1.5 feet have hit Hawaii as predicted... let's hope there are no more surprises.

I spoke to friend of mine, not long ago.. And of course, we were discussing the recent bout of events which unfolded. He managed to piss me off easily enough.

Why?

He said why should we care about it?

Of course we argued about the lives lost and what we were to feel if it happened to one of us, or a loved one. I was a little close to putting his head on a chopping board, when he said something that just made me stop in my tracks.

First he said.. there's no point getting ourselves down over the lives lost.. As selfish as it sounds, I guess it makes some sense. We can't do anything about those who have gone, nor are we in any position to help those who have lost so much. Arguably though, we can pray for them, and hope for their recovery.

The bigger things can come soon.. fund-raisers, charity drives, etc.. For now, I ask all of you to just silently bow your head down and ask whomever it is up there, Jesus, Buddha, Muhammad, Santa.. to protect those affected, from any more harm, to give strength, for those who have lost loved ones, and hope, for those lost. Takes a minute, won't cost you anything, except maybe a slightly better chance of heading off to the land filled with angels, and wings and yadda, yadda, yadda. It may be a small gesture, but its the only one we're capable of doing right now, so please guys.. A minute is all it takes.

Then he said..

Humans have to.. at one point, all die. And we deserve it.. Why? Coz we're literally KILLING ourselves. Global warming hasn't always existed. Wars aren't fighting themselves.

People are.

Bloody murdering the innocent.. and for WHAT?!

Power?!

Racism?!

What the hell dyou want, the world to be at your feet? All the riches known to man??! All the pleasures of life?!

When you get all that, and you've successfully taken over the world, what are you gonna do?

START INVADING VENUS?!

Geez man, I mean its bad enough people are dying all across the globe with these disasters, and yet, you find people WILLINGLY killing each other.

With facebook and all other social networks being barraged with pleas of prayers and bouts of notifications of concerns and sympathy, I had the misfortune of coming across one, which resembled something to the effect of "Poor Japan, but what goes around, comes around.. With what they did during WW2, they deserve it."

If you don't deserve anything else, least you do, is the official title as a WCA. (World Class Asshole.)

I'm not even gonna bother ranting about that nor dignify it with purpose.. It'll be endless, and its nowhere near worth it. Little things like these that make you question humanity. World's filled with all kinds of people.. apparently ones with World Class statuses too. ;)

And to anyone who plans on a future of terrorism, I hope you read this:

Now that your moral values have successfully gone up your arse, I hope you realize that at a point in time, all the money and power in the world won't matter anymore.. when you have nothing to live for. You think any of this is going to last?! Think this is some gruesome fairytale where you bully your way through to get what you want?!

Nah man.. Let me introduce y'all to something called life.

As quickly as something begins, it ends. The way something is given to you, can be taken. And the way you get something, can be lost.

Don't take life for granted.. You don't know whats gonna happen tomorrow, whether you even wake up or not.

Its funny how our world has evolved from good to better and from the fights of nobility to the fights of greed. The greedier and more inhumane you are, the more money you get. Thats what its become hasn't it?! We're all gonna be flushed down the toilet soon so might as well take everyone with us?!

Sigh. So is life.

I'm so getting my own place on Neptune. :/

I am, however, glad to see the inklings of humanity standing out. Britain's immediate response to Japan, people all over the world responding, praying and hoping well for all those stranded.. Good to know that not all of humanity has been damned.

Keep praying, guys. For Japan, for the Pacific, and for the world.

God knows, we need it.

Till then, chin up and stay as awesome as you are.. Coz frankly, the world can't take anything more.



Peace out, oompaloompas. :)

Man
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Letters to no one

Haaah, I just finished editing a post I had written a few days ago, but I shall only publish that one in a few daaayyss.

I'm supposed to be writing about the benefits cow shit, buttttt.. I got distracted. Surprise, surprise! And so I sit here instead, pondering over yet another thought. Has anyone realized that our popularity is judged by the number of friends we have on facebook?! HAHAHA!

Insane, but its actually pretty freakin' true! Moment we decide to stalk someone's page, boooom, first thing we look out for? Number of friends to decide whether you're a loser or not.

And that is probably one of THE stupidest things that I reckon has become a way of life. Facebook life if you will.

It'a pretty funny that we don't exactly KNOW half of 'em. Maybe just a known face in the corridors or a friends friend. Or a friends friends friend. Thing is, all of us just LIKE having a large number of friends, irrelevant of whether we know them or not. I suppose its not a crime, or maybe sometimes, you're really just that popular. But can I get a hands up for people who have accepted friends without really knowing who the heck they are, but the only thing that looked right was the '200 mutual friends?!'

Funny isn't it. Way back, when dinosaurs ruled the Earth and our parents were being shouted at by their parents, communication like this never existed. Post was the only thing people relied on, and pen-pals weren't unheard of. (Heck they may have still had homing pigeons for all I know!) The point though, is that does no one look up to realize that everything's just moving soooo damn fast?! One minute you've got letters that are so treasured, the next, phone calls, emails, texts and then social networking where you can fly all around the world, and keep up to date with everyone in a matter of seconds without getting off your bum?!

Has anyone, anyone at all, under the age of saaayyy 25, EVER written a letter? Not a card, not an email, but a letter. A real letter filled with all sorts of crap wherein you can admire the beauty of your handwriting before sealing it off to be sent abroad, hoping to god the recipient doesn't think a spider on valium wrote it?!

Oddities of life. We've come so far ahead that sometimes, we tend to forget things.

*And now, I shall be diverting, you were warned*

Just like memories.

We either have the best or the worst times of our lives and they are forever burned into our brains by a piece of hot, hot coal and yet, we can't keep 'em from fading.

Or sometimes...

We want them to.

Anyone ever wanted to just forget about all those times..? No matter how amazing they were, I'm sure the reason you'd have wanted to forget was because of the people/person IN theee memoooriiieeeesss! When it feels like every damn thing does nothing but remind you of 'em when all you wanna do is forget, move on and wish it never happened?!

But you just CAN'T regret something that felt soo awesome.

So where are we now? Stuck, lost, in the middle?

Sound familiar??

Haaah, we're all in our late teens fighting the battle of life and praying to God they'll go easy on us for ONCE. So don't think you're alonneeee mate. We may be all alone but we're all alone together, and that doesn't make us so alone, now does it?? :)

Yes, that sort of came to mind from PS I love you.

And I'm going back to my point.

No matter how far things can advance, the essence of the past will always be with us. Do what you please with them. Chuck 'em, file 'em, forget, remember.. Whatever it is, make sure you're making the right decision coz nobody likes regreeettsss!

Bottomline, and moral of the story:

Go write a letter.

Go find some paper,

And a pen,

Write something to someone who means something to you,

It can even be crap if you want,

Search every stationary store for the right sized envelope,

Check your handwriting a thousand times over, so the recipient will be impressed,

Write out their add, (You really don't wanna forget this one!)

Go to this place called a "Post Office,"

Pay a couple of cents for a stamp, and chuck it into those boxy thingys that have something like "abroad" and "local" written on them.

Wait for that extremely surprised squeel that either comes in the form of a phone call where your eardrums will be shattered, or an overly caps lock-ed-fied facebook message.

It'll make anyone's day an awesome one.

Whats more? They may even write back.

Hope you fellahs have been paying attention in English class.. Our letter formats might've come up there :p

And as for the memories?

Keep 'em. We all need something to remind us of our mistakes. Remember, what doesn't kill us, only serves to make us stronger.

Peace y'awll and lotsa cow poop..

Or bullshit.

This post may have been filled with both.

Heh.

All in your perception, not mine.

Till next time, stay awesome and keep the smiles rollinnn'

Man
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PS. Yes, I have thought about a career in counseling. No, I don't plan on ever pursuing it. :p I do give free hugs. I'm afraid the cost of a free hug would be a hug. Won't set you back that much though, don't worry ;)

Broken glass

We've all had that thought.

Yknoww, the one that screams I NEED TO GET OUT OF HERE in our heads??

Come now, I'm sure many of you have been so sick and tired of home that you've wanted to just storm out and never return, no?

Whether its the annoying lil siblings, the privacy issues, the freedom issues, or even, the hitler dominating your life. If both are hitlers at home, then you have my complete and utter sympathy. One parent breathing down your neck is hard enough.. Imagine both :S

So, I was just thinking today.. It's the day.

The M day.

Quite possibly the most horrid day I've had in a while.

Yes, I speak of......... THE MONDAY!! *insert gasp here*

After a disastrous day filled with nagging prefects (no offense mates, I just hate being treated like a kid.. "pull up your socks!" I dont see how on earth the height of my socks could POSSIBLY affect my studies.. But oh yeah, I forgot, that's where my textbooks are kept right?! And my lovely jacket, that keeps me from dying of frostbite in class is probably an offense to the blind as it bares 7 letters. Ahhh lifee.. but I don't blame em.. They're just doing their responsible duties for the school and I suppose it should all be appreciated. A little politeness really wouldn't hurt though.. Just sayin'), then we get on to the lovely teachers, from the beautiful lectures and telling-offs, to the point of 'rubbing your nose raw on the road' sorta thing. And how on earth could we POSSIBLY forget the Everest of homework we received?! Yupyupyup.. Certifiably HORRIBLE day.

Now I've just been wandering, I've gotta stop beating around the bush and so now, TO THE POINT!

Finally ey ;)

So the thought of leaving all our troubles behind and flying off to our own lil paradise.. Be it Switzerland, New York orrr somewhere near a vast cerulean ocean or even under a rock. Whatever strikes you fancy. I'm not judging..

I ask you all to ponder over the thought of this, of what hit me when I coincidentally stared out the window this evening.

I saw grills and a pane (bars for some of u maybe?? ;)) and you can make this out to be something optimistic or pessimistic. Based on your decisions and how fed up you really are.

Are you trapped, or sheltered?

Think about it.

Have an awesome week ahead. Will post more when I can. Its a lil hard to manage on a tiny touchscreen with scarce time to spare.

Till then, keep the awesomeness coming and the smiles afloat.

Poopies & peace peeps!

Man
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PS. Yes, I do lavishly coat everything in sarcasm to a point of a dripping hose, when I'm nettled, annoyed, frustrated or on whole inaudibly pissed off. Then again, sarcasms a part of me too.. Oh wells. I'm totally cool with it, if you arent then.. Maybe look into an elephants rear end to compare how much we both care? :)

Buttercup

Screw the damn world.

I shall now present to you, people of the world, two of THE most painful things life chucks at you.

So first off:
When you've known someone and are starting to push all your trust into them... Thats EXACTLY when they decide to pull out that knife of theirs. Is it in human nature or something?! Seriously, when you start trusting someone so much, enough to give them your life without a moments hesitation, they suddenly whip out the list of WHY YOU SHOULDN'Ts. And that's the 3rd time its happened to me! Geez, why am I such an idiot?!

I'm sure this has of course, happened to many others out there.. And who else but you people, would know what it feels like. You knooww, the heart-sinking when you've just found out, the anger that bubbles in you and then there's the thoughts that just invade your mind RIGHT before you're about to go adrift into a slumber. And who on earth, could forget.. the most important feeling that literally wretches your heart out, squishes it to a mush and stuffs it back in?! Sounds disgusting doesn't it??

It's not just disgusting.

It's painful.

So very very PAINFUL.

Funny thing about pain.. This ones not physical, it doesn't require Iodine, nor does it need butterfly bandages. BUT the similarities are uncanny.. It needs care, it needs attention, it needs time to heal and heck, it even needs a few tears.

Pain and hurt are two very different things that come so close together that they deserve to walk hand in hand. They have the same recovery methods but the results are always the same: a healed wound that has left its permanent mark upon you.

But remember folks, when you've found every reason to give up, remember why you've been holding on for so long. Trust is an extremely precious thing that is easily broken by lies, betrayal, even misconceptions. Sad ey?? I'm afraid that's lifee. They say trust is many things. I believe its a pot. An important, valuable one at that. More of an urn maybe.. A greek urn thats found after a long, treacherous diving expedition that has had to battle many things to get to. Well, you get the picture. So something as valuable as this greek urn should be kept in a safe place. Now, no matter how safe it is, you'll always find that it can be knocked down, either by yourself, accidentally or willingly, or some inconsiderate idiot. Bottomline, is that once its fallen and broken, its gone. Just gone.

And your tears can only roll as you realize that its gone, that smallest mistake, of yours or someone else, has costed you so much. You pick up the pieces and try to glue it all together or try to mend the pieces to shape 'em back together. Its put a whole again, but you can see the cracks, so visible and you know that its just never, ever going to be the same.

Okay wow, I'm diverting again. Getting back to what I was saying.. its painful alright, extremely painful. What's worse is that the other person either doesn't give a shit or is just oblivious to all this.

And so, the lesson? Don't trust anyone anymore? Close your heart out to everyone? Become a statue?? No, no and most definitely NOT!

You learn, move on and be more careful. Just because you've been crushed, doesn't you shouldn't keep trying. Sort of liiikkeeee.. chocolate cake. You have an absolute craving for it and it ends up being the most horrid thing you've ever tasted in the world. Will you stop eating chocolate cake for the rest of your life?? NO! Absolutely not! That's absurd to even think about! No, you learn, and you move on. It's easier said than done, and trust me, I know how much it hurts, but I suppose its just something that can't be avoided. We've all, at one point or another in our lives, been betrayed by someone. Whether they were siblings, friends, girlfriends, boyfriends, etc..

Sometimes, it may have not been intentional so you just gotta learn to just forgive and forget. Ain't nothing to it. I'm gonna knock Shakespere on the head and say "Tis better to have loved and lost than to have not loved at all." Or something like that anyway.

I'm not saying you should welcome them back in with open arms. Tread more lightly, and more cautiously and remember to never lose faith. (As cheesy as that sounds) Coz as far as you go along this insane rollercoaster of life, you'll realize that although you get hurt alot, through people and relationships, just remember that happiness should be shared and no one deserves to be alone. No matter how many times the thoughts of the "I'm worthless's, I wish I were her's, I hate myself's and the classic fate screwed up, look at them and look at me's," just remember that though you may hate yourself, someone else loves you. And when you wake up everyday, healthy and safe, maybe someone's been praying for exactly that. It's just about attitude.

Count your prayers, and your blessings, coz there's just too much to live for.




P.S. Painfullest thing number 2, shall come later on.. For now, try digesting this one ;)

Till next time, peepz, when I'm in a better state...

Stay awesome, and SMILE! :)

Man
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Three lil birds

Wow, its definitely been ages aye? I'm not going to dignify this post with a mashload of nonsensical reasons or countless apologies. I did feel like writing though.. so writing I shall do! Anyone and everyone's more than welcomed to read. :B

So its been an extremely lazy day. Yesterday wasn't too bad.. After dragging my tired ass to school, and surviving a long day, I returned to the blissful mind-numbing world called television and just wasted 2 hours of my life infront of it just because I felt like it. Heh so sue me :p Soon after, the laziness just progressed continuously ending with a much needed and relaxing swim at night. Followed, was a heartmoving, Aussie and all round good tear-filled movie called Matching Jack.

And so, nothing can be said about Saturday.. unless you want me to give you the exact number of sheep I've counted and the emo songs I've been playing. If you wanna know that as well, I'm afraid that you need to GET-A-LIFE. (Skipped badminton too.. If my coach reads this, I'm beyond chopped.)

So, I've punched that card in. What am I doing now? Sitting on my desk blasting emo songs and just being an all round certified bum. :) Mum and sis have got their respective dinners and my fluctuating coughs and waterfall-like influenced nose refuses to let me leave the crevices of the house.

And I've been thinking.

I really shouldn't be allowed to do that.

But I have.

So beware.

You've been warned.

Does anyone realize how shitted up life is?! Lets break it down shall we? Right so you've got people, responsibilities, duties, jobs/school/college/uni, relationships, people..

What to do, what to dooo?!

Well, I'll be talking about the first and last aspects of our lives today: People.

We know tons of 'em. Family, friends, strangers, neighbours, etc.. And although we know them, we don't know them either. Confused? I am.

We'll start with what bonds people together.. Relationships.

Now that's an incredibly complex word for anyone. Relationships. When all of us read, hear or even think about that word, we're engulfed in a series of mixed feelings. There's dread, hope, fear, sadness, happiness, anxiety and whatever else that lil brain of yours can think up.

WHY do we have those feelings??

Answers easy enough.. you dont know this, I'm afraid you are the eligible recipient of a very deserving knock on the head.

People.

It's the people that we think about or those who connect is TO those relationships that chucks all our feelings into a blender and whirs it up.

Now if all you people are remembering your boyfriends or girlfriends or dogs or whatever, I'm not just talking about romantic relationships, mates. I'm talking about all kinds. But I don't want to get personal here.

Just remember, that no matter how happy you are, there are times that someone else will let you down, but don't blame them for that.. no ones perfect and if they are, start running away.. you've probably found a citizen of Mars who's decided to invade Earth.

Also know that while things can start, they can also end. Slowly. Painfully. Abruptly. Getting over someone and the process of healing an empty spot in your heart is definitely one of the hardest lessons life throws at ya. It can take ageessss or maybe even longer.

"If it still hurts, you still care." Awful quote filled with nothing but truth.

Right I'm bored now.. So I shall go cheer myself up with Bob Marley... And cake.

Will update more soon.. Till then, keep yo' heads on and your shirts off.

HAHA I DONT EVEN KNOW WHERE THAT CAME FROM!!!

Right kaybyes.

Poopies and peace yo!

Man
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